So hear goes my story.
My parents got divorced when I was five (not uncommon) my mother and I lived a quite life for many years, until one day she meet a man when I as 15 and that is were my life took a turn for the worst. My step father did things that an adult should do you a young child.
So when I turned 18 I meet a man (13 year older) and married him to leave my house. (OK, not the best thing to do in retrospect but I really didn't have many options). Now he's not the worst man but (he's the type to put you down to make himself feel better) I was never really loved him. I did try to move forward though, we opened a business, with money my mother lent me (which he ran) we bought a house, that I put on my credit (his was no good). But he was so lazy he couldn't keep any of it going (and my job wasn't enough to pay for everything) all he would do for hours on end is be on the computer looking at superman. I had to sell both just to escape foreclose.
Hears were my big mistake really came into play. All I can really say for myself is that "I fell in love" In September 2003 after we sold the house. We both went to work for his uncle's store in Union City where I thought I meet the man of my life a delivery man (12 years older then myself, Mr.Forero). At that time he was married 4 years, had a daughter in Colombia and on with his wife hear. I in turn had NO kid and a unhappy marriage. Long story short we got together and what more can I say I fell completely and blindly in love with him. He is all I thought about all day from the moment I woke up and even in my dreams at night.
Well you know how they say that children are the ultimate sign of ones loves love, well you can probably see were this is going I had my only child and his first son. I was so happy I finally thought I had everything I wanted at hand all I was missing now was my love of my life (my sons father) to be my husband and my "ideal life would be perfect".
But as you may have already guessed when push came to shove he left me holding the bag and high tailed it back to what he knew. Man did that hurt. My hole life came crashing down around me. Imagine my son was only 2 months old, I was still married to a man I didn't love and the man I was completely in love with high tailed it and ran the other way. That was so hard (emotionally) that just thinking about that makes me cry...
But wait the sorry just gets better and I just become more stupid. (Note: remember at the end of my pregnancy I weighed 275 and I dropped down to 170 in four months) four months later he calls me again bla bla blaing me "I love you", "I'm sorry" bla bla bla. And what do I do I fall for it again. Only this time he gets his wife pregnant (she did it on purpose) Trust me he didn't want anymore childrean he could berly afford the two he was already paying for.
Then in February 2007 he (my son’s father) "finally" agreed to start a new life with me ( he told me he couldn't live with out me and that it was atlest worth a try to give our "love" a chance) and our son he picked me up at my house in his car at 3am and my son and I left with what we had on. We went to a hotel for the night agreeing to talk the next day about out plans. But when we awoke he had changed his mind once again and went back to his home leaving me to fend for both me and my son allow.
In the mean time all of these "problems" came crashing down a pond me an I need to seek pycatric help I went on anti-depressants, sleep aids and was almost hospitalized, my depression was so over whelming. I just couldn't believe this was happing to me "once" again. (Up to this point of my life, I had never gone to see phacatrist or go on any type of anti-depressants but I just couldn't deal any more all I wanted to do was die so I wouldn't feel that way anymore. The only thing that kept me going was my little boy)
He moved changes his car and disappeared into the abyss. Not respiring for another 4 months till I filled for child support. (Convened ha?) Acting all conserned "oh how is the baby is he ok, is somthing wrong". Lier, lier all you really care about is why and what I will be asking the court for. All you really care about is what this will coast YOU.
Now mister wonderful (AKA Richard or Rich) is trying to have is "cake and eat it to".. Lets just say if it was up too him he would want his wonderful little family to show off and then spend his free time, doing "extrea curiculer activity with me" and give his son a quite pat on the head and hello. Well you know what RICH that just won't due and I will nolonger be your little puppet. THIS RIDE IS CLOSED.
Now mister wonderful (AKA Richard or Rich) is trying to have is "cake and eat it to".. Lets just say if it was up too him he would want his wonderful little family to show off and then spend his free time, doing "extrea curiculer activity with me" and give his son a quite pat on the head and hello. Well you know what RICH that just won't due and I will nolonger be your little puppet. THIS RIDE IS CLOSED.
Bottom line is I know I have not acted perfect but man, my feeling are still very real and they hurt more then I could ever put into words. And all I have on my mind everyday (beside day to day stuff & my divorce, etc.) is that he should be made to pay for el despresio that he has shown to both my son and to myself.
The moral of this story is women high and low hear and out of the county hear my warning.
Run when you see this guy all he will leave you with is:
a.) a broken hart
b.) HPV (sexily transmitted desise - which he gave to me and his wife)that is if he doesn’t have HIV or AIDS by NOW
c.) Broke (cause he's cheep doesn’t pay for anything/or give gifts)
d.) A child (he gives those away like parting gifts.
He's has 4 children that he knows about, three abortions, and two miscarriage) - don't forget he doesn’t like to pay for them either!!!
